I would like for my life to be non-complicated. But unfortunately, apparently there was some kind of cosmic contract signed by me before my birth for my life to be unimaginably messed-up.
My dad has warned me that once you put something on your blog, it is fair game for anyone to see, read, and analyze. Against my better judgment, I am going to push publish anyway.
My dad also warned me not to e-mail MX to ask him to leave me alone. Unfortunately, he did this after I had already pushed send. I wrote a polite reasoning why we could not be friends and apologized. He e-mailed me back wishing me the best of joy and happiness in life and I thought that it all was over. I felt kind of bad because of how nice he was, but I knew I couldn't and probably wouldn't change any of it.
I got an e-mail later on from his girlfriend, asking why I had lied to her and said I didn't know her when she had heard from other people that I don't like her, which I never said to anyone. I've met the girl probably once, about 2 years ago, we didn't really talk, and so therefore, I really don't know her. I did not lie.
She asked me why I had flat out lied to her and told me I was ridiculous for not being able to forgive someone. She told me that if I wasn't going to be friends with MX and have nothing to do with him, then I shouldn't talk to her either.
I about cried. Ok, I did cry. I honestly believe that I did the right thing. I've tried to be friends with MX and it always ends up in a fight. I did this for my own well-being and peace of mind and so that neither of us ended up hurt at the end of it. I was hurt that, according to her, he and one of my friends had told her that I said that I didn't like her. It hurt to be betrayed like that.
I never tried to contact her. She contacted me. And then she tells me not to contact her, which was kind of a non-issue. This part made me mad.
The part that really got to me was when she told me I was unforgiving. In my opinion, just because you forgive someone does not mean that you trust them and also doesn't mean that you are their friend.
I really believe that I did the right thing. It's not easy, like I had hoped. It hurts a lot. But I would not ever change it.